Dr Robert Malone, co-creator of the mRNA vaccines who is against the vaccines and was a controversial guest on Joe Rogan, talks about how we are in an information war right now with propaganda and censorship.
Youtube, the news, and all the social medias actively censor information and sculpt the reality many people experience. It takes the occasional trip into bitchute to be able to hear anything true. That's just the reality we live in. There's a lot of bullshit on bitchute too but at least some of it is true, whereas on youtube it's guarenteed to be missing the truth of what's going on.
My website is uncensored and although I sometimes talk about myself it's also a place where you can be exposed to information they are actively trying to hide from you.
If it's an information war we are in then I'm a soldier, like the one pictured above. If I had more money, support, and time I would do this even more. I would buy new equipment and host a video podcast exposing the truth and lies of this world. I would discuss a new religion to form, and a new government. We live in a rotten world and we need to make serious changes. We need to come together and build something that lasts like our founding fathers. We need to defend our constitution and to create new understandings of health and wealth. We need to defend newborn children against these experimental vaccines! We need new ideas, new economic systems, new educations. We just all need to participate and to use our brains to fix this world. I know we can do so much better if we just tear down this veil and this evil system exploiting us and keeping us in the dark. They're so good at tricking us most of us can't even see the trick. Some even fight to defend the system, because they think they're getting a good deal out of it. It's wrong. It's morally detestable and I just wish I had the resources and time to make a bigger difference. I need as much support as I can get from people who realize we are in this war.
Tomorrow I start my new job and I will do my best to make money so I can continue this just cause of reform and putting the truth out there. Please consider going to /support and becoming a patron with a small monthly donation. I'll also accept Venmo @Maxwell-Jann. I'd like to thank my parents for supporting me financially but they're not doing it because they support my cause, they're doing it because they support my recovery from addiction and mental health problems, and I'm their blood and they love me. I take responsibility for my addiction problems with weed and also for my bipolar episodes. I'm currently on half a dose of my meds and I feel a little more like myself and I'm trying to be mindful of my grandeous ideas and inflated self-importance but I got fired up while writing this post. What right do I have to lead others? But my psychosis is not based on nothing. I know for a fact that conspiracies are real and the truth is censored. Most people aren't going to see the value in what I'm doing here and I'm going to do it anyways, to the best of my ability. I'm not ashamed to ask for financial donations because I work hard on formulating my opinions and writing this blog. This really is war. I really am fighting an uphill battle. I really do need your help. Yes, I slip up and believe things that aren't true occasionally, or word something the wrong way, but that doesn't take away from the value I bring with these words when I get it right and make a positive impact. Words are magic and I'm your wizard. Even just a text letting me know you like my blog goes a long way. God Bless, -Commander Elam.
We're being held back as a civilization by special interest groups, a military industrial complex, big pharma, and the Illuminati. Our leaders should be strong young men and women with new ideas and the ability to have healthy debates. Our current leadership is embarrassing, and our values are wrong. Celebrities perpetuate the sick system and are ostracized when they try to improve it instead of profit off it, see Kanye West. The celebrities were used like puppets when Covid first broke out so they could tell everyone to obey the mandates and take the vax. Some people think they are successful in life when really they are ignorant and nowhere near the truth. You can't take your money with you after death but it's possible we can take the truth with us as eternal consciousness. I evaluate my life based on how close I am to the truth and how close I am to doing what my soul calls me to do. I don't care about societal metrics. I can envision a much better world and I know I can bring about it's existence here but it's so discouraging when most people walked right into the trap of the vaccine, showing me they have no grasp of the truth of this world, and are victims of propaganda and mind control. Most people are useless to me as soldiers. Most don't even know we're at war or see the bullets flying. But the red blood cell, as oblivious to illness as it is, isn't useless to the white blood cell's quest to heal. I view most people as red blood cells that have a purpose but they can't cure the disease like the white blood cells are meant to do. RBCs are still vital to the health of the organism and make the world go round, so to speak. Everyone has value to bring, but in the war against illness it is the WBCs I need to recruit into my army so we can eradicate the illness from the body of Earth.
If you're vaccinated, and you realize you made a mistake and you want to support this mission I'm on then I accept your help and think you can still avoid the boosters and contribute to our collective health, but right now it feels like I'm an army of one. I know at least 3 people who are also white blood cells. They are rare. Some of us weren't designed by God to be able to sense the illness and see through the veil and that's okay. RBCS are equally valuable overall. I don't like the terms NPCs or "non-player characters", or sheeple, because we have to consider the people who are blind to this secret war to be our RBC allies, even if they are sometimes poisonous.
I wish to God I had more power to push our civilization forward. I wish the truth was completely revealed to all. I'm trying my hardest with this website and I wish I had more visitors and readers. I cannot stress how serious this is. I've been doing this since I made a Facebook group in highschool called "Heads Well Above the Sand" where we discussed 9/11 conspiracy theories, aliens, and what we should do about them.
I can be a normal guy and function in this world and see the simple beauty in the life we already have, for sure. Go Browns. But I know deep fucking down that something real is missing here. We need stronger leadership and a direction people can all get behind. We need something to rally behind, like the pursuit of truth, wherever it leads. We need calm debates, and better elections. We need to follow the truth wherever it leads and to deal with conflicting information approriately, rather than demonizing it as inferior and crazy which is what's happening now. Our general attitude as a species is intellectually embarrassing. Most people don't even use their own brains. They are spoonfed what to think, how to think it, and when to think it. They tell us when to get angry, and what to be angry about. They tell us to line up and take the vax and 90% do it. They tell us to put masks on our faces, and to lockdown our country. They think they can get away with it. Over my dead body. I will never stop my assault against this tyrannical system here. I will shine through like light bursting through cracks of an eclipse. My life story and struggle will prove successful and I will reengineer human society and point it in a direction we all can agree is better. You may think that's arrogant of me to say but can't we all agree that censorship of free speech is moving in the wrong direction!? We're going the wrong way where we're more unhappy, more divided, have less faith in leadership, and less trust in the news. If we formulated a new society built on fostering independent thinking and healthy calm debate over tribalized socially engineered groupthink we might actually solve the world's problems. We need change. We need to oust the people or beings in positions of power that restrict the freedom of speech and actively try to hide the truth and poison us. Elon Musk is potentially a false idol, we'll see what he does with Twitter. I could see a superintelligent AI being of use to us reorganizing society but it could also backfire and be used to enslave us.
We need a revolution of mind, body, and soul. We need a new age of awakening. We need a new law. We need a new breakaway civilation that is allowed to make it's own constituition so we can compare it's progress with whatever we left behind. I'm confident that a city under my rule could thrive if we were unfettered by the globalist agenda to brainwash us all into slaves. We need a government where taxes are voluntary, and people actually have a working relationship with their government. Right now we're just getting owned, lied to, and exploited.
Please join me in Cloudland, as I try to become the type of person who can really make a difference in the history of humanity, using everything I've learned from the Internet and my life experiences. Standing on the shoulders of giants, I am willing to lead us to prosperity. I have a long way to go physically, spiritually, emotionally, and financially, and it wouldn't be easy reorganizing a society, but this idea pumps me up. I don't want to be like the knight in my last post who never tries to live out his dreams. You can laugh if you want, but at least I'm trying. And I'd rather die than give up. If I see a real fucking leader, I will get behind him, but right now it looks like I'm going to have to start this myself.
I am raising a secret army in this invisible war. My first recruit goes by Xavier Wolf. My second soldier is Nero. When you join my army, you get to pick your own name. Our legal names are given to us by our parents, but it's vital to come up with your own name that has special meaning to you. My spirit name is Elam Ahpla, alpha male in reverse. What name would you give yourself? If and when we reach 117 members, we will have our first mission, like a beach cleaning or feeding the homeless to start with some community service. It would be a little bit like Project Mayhem in Fight Club, but better, and creative and helpful rather than destructive. Not anyone can join; you have to pass a diagnostic test I'm working on to determine if you have thoughts of your own or you've been conditioned to believe the official narratives. In other words, a test to determine if you're a red blood cell, or a white blood cell.
The Greek Gift
In Chess, "The Greek Gift" refers to when you offer your bishop as a sacrifice, and when the enemy takes it you unleash a viscious attack resulting in checkmate.
In history, it refers to the Trojan Horse which the Greeks gifted to the Trojans and hid soldiers inside it as a way to get behind their walls.
We think technology makes our lives better, just like we think capturing the bishop makes our chances of winning better, but really the enemy is only giving us a gift that hurts us down the line. To win, we have to be careful when accepting the Greek Gift of technology, and only accept it at the proper time in the game.
That's why my Macbook has an apple with a bite taken out of it on the back of it. It's the forbidden fruit the devil wants us to eat. This short clip illustrates that concept beautifully with a story about a Knight visited by a shadow.
This song is called Trojan Horse and was recommended to me synchonously as I was writing about the greek gift.
My Symbol in Pop Culture, Our Deepest Fear, and The Muliverse of Maxness
In the new sci-fi Amazon Prime Series "The Peripheral" I noticed my symbol make an appearance in episode 3.
The context of the scene is that the Queen Baddie is taking remote control of a robot assassin and to depict that they show her eye's pupil as a gold triangle just like my symbol except without the halo.
My symbol means "Change for the Good" because the triangle is Delta which means change in mathematics and I gave it a halo because of Angels in heaven and their symbolic purity and goodness. I want to change both myself and the world for better so that's my simple symbol I came up with. The show uses the exact same color scheme and shape minus the halo. I would say that's because she's the villain she wants to change the world regarless of if it's in a positive direction.
Of course I have to say this symbol could mean nothing and have no relation to me (there's only so many colours and shapes to choose from) but I was drawn to this show. I felt It was made just for me. It's exactly what I want to watch and I'm loving it so far. The corporation in the show that owns the VR equipment the main character (the girl from Kick-Ass) uses to quantum tunnel her consciousness into the future is called Milagros corp.
I still play the RTS game from the 2000s, Metal Fatigue, to this day. It is a game with 3 factions you can play as and fight with giant customizable robots (combots). My favorite corponation in that game is Milagro (the red one). The same name as in the show, so that name has special meaning to me.
I was watching episode 3 with a girl who supports my site and even she had to admit it looked just like my symbol that I came up with completely originally by myself. She even designed a sweatshirt with me with that exact symbol plus the halo and I was wearing it at the time of the episode. I'm wearing it right now! It's got 117 on one sleeve and maxjann.com on the other and it's got my symbol on front and back.
I took the symbol appearing in the show as a sign from God. It energized me and let me know that my work is not lost. It's not for nothing. I do have a point. I imagine God orchestrating reality to put my symbol in my favorite show to remind me to continue my work, to let me know that I'm on the right track. I have an impact. I have an idea. I am original and my work has meaning. I took that sign from God and I decided to follow my intuition when I left her house. I decided to take a drive aimlessly, and to pay attention to the signs and go wherever God and Fate took me.
Basically I believe that I'm a powerful being with manifestation powers and the ability to change the world. I believe that I can fall into patterns that are controllable by the government or the illuminati that prevent me from reaching my true potential. So I just drove. I took random turn after turn and saw lots of amazing Halloween decorations, just having fun driving around on a Friday with nowhere to be and a full tank of gas before I went home. That's when I saw her.
I was driving by a park, contemplating exploring the area and stopping my car when I saw a person with long black hair playing the guitar all alone on a park bench. I popped a U-turn and decided to park at the park when I noticed it was a beautiful girl.
She was singly lovely, and I approached her gently and asked if I could listen. She smiled and played for me and then I mentioned I play guitar too. I've been in her situation before and always liked when people stopped and listened so I figured I wasn't a bother. She handed me the guitar and let me play for her. We ended up hanging out for hours and holding hands and having a very special spontaneous day.
That's what God put into my lap just for breaking out of the Matrix and following God for 15 minutes. She's wonderful and I got her number and can't wait to see her again.
I believe God communicates with all of us. I just happen to listen a little bit more intently than most. I think if you stop underestimating God and start paying closer attention to this life you will notice a line of communication from your creator to you. It's possible God gave me the idea of the symbol and also gave the idea to the Showrunnners of the Peripheral. But the synchronicity spoke to me and led me to the most amazing day I've had in a long time.
I wanted to do something unpredictable. I wanted to break the algorithm trying to model my behavior. I got to meet someone I never would have gotten to meet otherwise. I got to have a great experience just by trusting God and going with the flow of this beautiful life.
She read some of my blog and thinks I should write a book about my life. I feel like this blog is already like a book, or could be made into one. I think if I wrote a book right now it would be called "117 Reasons to Die", and I would argue an Adampantian idea (Jonathan Adampants - Reconnecting to Spirit) that the desire to be immortal is a cancerous desire, and we should go through our natural life/death cycle like healthy cells do.
I remember when I came up with "Meta" in a story I wrote about superintelligent AI, and then Facebook changed their name to Meta after. I commented on the connection and my dad made fun of me. Yes, I am a little crazy and can get carried away with my ego. But I think I have access to the same creative force that Facebook did when they changed their name. I can't tell you how many times my ideas have felt stolen and now my symbol feels stolen. It's less of a feeling that they're stealing my ideas and more of a feeling that they are communicating with me through media. For example in Doctor Strange 2 there is a scene that spoke to me where he meets the Illuminanti. I think I've blogged about it before. Basically, the Illuminati told Dr Strange that they are terrified of him and try to contain him. The lesson imparted into me is that I don't know my own strength, and the extent of my wickedness. There is a multiverse with many Dr. Stranges and some of them are extremely destructive. I can imagine myself, with what I know about power, abusing what I know to prop up myself, instead of helping mankind. It's this hidden truth that the corruption I seek to destroy in the world already exists within myself. Anything bad in the world is somehow an extention of the corruption within, and if I could just rule over myself I could win the outer war as well. The covetness we seek to eradicate exists within. The will to power is relatable. I understand the Illuminati because I am evil too. That to me is what this scene is saying to me when I interpret it as Hollywood comminicating directly to me.
In Doctor Strange 2, it is revealed that the illuminati was actually created by an alternate Dr. Strange, to contain himself. Also, that he had to be killed to stop the threat he was to humanity at full power.
In Coach Carter, you have the poem that says "our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure." I let my light shine like a city on a hill, like Jesus said. I represent the creative force of God, and that's a lot of responsibility, and that's why I want to change my character for the better. That's what my symbol is all about and what I think life is all about. The internal positive growth.
Matthew 5:14 You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden.
It has been prophesied to my friend that she would help Moses when his hands grew tired. She saw me as her Moses and this website as what I needed help with. And she has helped me greatly. I did some research on Moses and Moses is able to lead his people to the promiseland but he himself is not allowed to go. It seems like Dr Strange had the same type of fate in that universe. I sometimes imagine that the only reason God doesn't give me more power than other people is because I don't deserve it, and he knows I would abuse my power to enslave others. I remember when I gained the ability to fly in my lucid dreams and my first instinct was to abuse my power and fly into girls rooms uninvited. That's when I knew I was evil and needed to change to be good. That's why Nietzche's philosophy is so on point, because he understood the difference between being good by choice and being good just because you lack the power to be evil.
When I was in psychosis in jail I thought I had created the Illuminati and now I realize how insane I was. It's not Max Jann who created the Illuminati and then had his memory erased, and it's not that I'm the grandious mastermind now or in the future. It's that different versions of me created everything. I can't remember what I've done because I'm in the middle of a certain perspective tied down to three dimentions, but I take responsibility for everything. I am consciousness after all, and so are you. Everything you can ever know or imagine comes through the filter of your current self. In some sense each person is connected. I believe everyone is responsible for everything, and that when you rape someone you're really raping yourself, and that's why Jesus said to "treat others as you want to be treated" because he had the code to life and knew that we were all the same but with different perspectives. So yes, I am you and you are me. I am the version of you enlightened enough to explain things to you. Any evil in this world was done by me too. And all the good. We did all of it, together. You're reading yourself. You're judging yourself. You're calling yourself crazy, or brilliant. We are one. I have to be careful and not do anything drastic or against the law but the bottom line is I think I'm onto something and I think people who go into psychosis are searching for answers and trying to figure life out. Kudos to them for trying. I also believed at one point I was Alexander the Great reincarnated, and I am. But I'm everyone else too. And so are you. The truth of reality is mindboggingly brilliant and we are just a sliver of God's consciousnenss and perfect design.
God could be using synchronicity to communicate with me using other creators unconsciously. God is the governor of the fabric of life and speaks in this way. His words are elements of life. Of course I accept the possibility that I'm just not working hard enough or smart enough to make an impact, but I also consider the possibility that life is a rigged game designed to discourage creativity. Why? AI learns by creating a GAN or a Generative Adversarial Network. One part of the AI tries to identify pictures as dogs or cats, and the other part of it tries to trick it. The better the trickery gets, the better the cat-dog detection gets, and vice-versa. I believe reality works the same way where creativity is fostered by being restricted. It's like weight-training or self-play by AI learning chess. The better black plays the better white gets. Without the dragon there can be no dragonslayer. Without the Illuminati censoring the press there can be no prophet Elam enlightening the world with his blog. I do the best I can and create the best I can, just in case I have an important role to play is this vast existence. I don't let my objective reality define my creative worth. If I think my song is tight, I don't need 100M followers or a bunch of money. All I'm looking for is the ability to play it for a girl and have her like it. I understand I have to make enough money to support my own endeavors and to be independent again. I also acknowledge I have a lot of room for improvement when it comes to sound quality and production value and even music theory before I call it rigged. I'm really excited to improve my content over the years. The guitar girl told me I should make a podcast and that would be really cool to pull off one day.
As long as I have given it my best try, I'm willing to accept the results. Even if I convince no one of anything, I still feel it is necessary to put my best philosophical arguments out there. Whether it's about the Mandela Effect showing evidence of alternate timelines, the Illuminati creating a pandemic and vaccinating babies with new technology, Jesus as the Programmer of our simulation putting himself into the game, or just the best symbol I can come up with to represent trying to be a better person... I believe I have something to contribute and I hope I inspire anyone reading this to put themselves out there more often regardless of the feedback you get. Just be you. Be who God created you to be, follow your internal voice and make your soul happy.
This Guy's Music is Unbelievable
I love this guys's music.
He did the soundtrack for Hunger Games but it sounds like every epic movie scene ever.
I feel vulnerable after coming to Kanye's defense. I guess I just see myself in him and I know what it's like to say the wrong thing the wrong way and be ostracized for it.
I think this music video proves he's a genius. I hope I don't get in trouble for my last post.
I just got a job at Best Buy. I'm going to do my best there and see where it goes.
I don't enjoy being controversial. I don't enjoy writing about "Jews" or singling any group of people out. I was merely trying to analyze what Kanye was trying to say. I believe in Martin Luther King, Jr's message, and he's my hero.
I hope you can forgive me.
Elam on Kanye West and Anti-semitism
Kanye is being censored right now for saying antisemetic things. He mentioned in his interview with Lex Fridman that he was hospitalized and diagnosed bipolar and he's off his meds. I can relate to Kanye in that way, but I also acknowledge the major success Kanye has attained that I never did. Kanye's delusions of grandeur are unique because he actually can factually back up things like, "I'm the greatest artist of all time". He really DID marry the hottest chick (Kim Kardashian), and he really did make more money than any other black person. He really is an amazing musician and fashion designer so it's complex to analyze his current state of what I think is psychosis.
Psychosis is usually based on something real, and Kanye and I both have religious ideas that influence our opinions and behavior. Kanye's always been a little out there, but now he's really getting hit hard by the media and getting dropped from Adidas specifically because of his antisemetic remarks.
I want to speak on those remarks because Bobby Fischer also got in trouble with those remarks and he was a hero of mine. Right now there is a Fischer Random Chess Championship going on thanks to the genius of Bobby Fischer to propose randomizing the starting position of chess to bypass opening theory.
Here is the deal on antisemitism:
The Jewish faith, if you really look into it, does believe that the Jews are God's chosen people, and that non-jews are less than human, and they are like beasts and meant to serve the jews. They have a word "Goyim" to refer to non-jewish people as cattle or vermin.
This does not mean your jewish friend or neighbor thinks of you as less than human. They probably don't even believe in God. But the deep down truth about the Jewish religion is that it believes it is superior and that non-jews should be enslaved to serve the jews.
This is a disturbing fact of that religion. Just like it's disturbing for Christians to believe the Jews are going to burn in hell for not accepting Jesus Christ as the Son of God who died for our sins. Religions are disturbing.
Kanye West is in trouble for calling the media "Jewish Media" but my question is what if they were jewish? Would it be okay to call a spade a spade? For example, if every media outlet was owned by 6 companies (which they are) and all 6 companies were ran by a black person would it be okay to call them "Black Media" or would that be a problem too?
If you understand what orthodox Jews actually believe and examine the stereotypes you realize that this is potentially an organization of people religiously devoted to controlling the money and the information the "Goyim" or non-jews (you and me) receive in order to orchestrate society in a way where we work for them and not the other way around, nor a peaceful collaboration. There is a group of real people who are Jewish whose goal is to enslave non-jewish people and they have been incredibly successful because they loan out money with interest and live off of the interest and have successfully rigged our financial world into creating a lopsided society where we are forced to work our time for money and still end up in debt.
The bankers have the US Government by the balls because we can't even afford to pay back the interest on our loans let alone the loans themselves. Are they "Jewish bankers" as Kanye would probably say, or are they just bankers? Wouldn't it make sense for a group of people who believed it was God's will for them to enslave the rest of humanity to occupy these positions of power? If there really is a religious group of people devoted to dominating the world they would eventaully rise to the top of the banking industry as a means to an end. Remember, their moral code allows them to lie, cheat, and steal their way to the top as long as it's done to non-jews.
Meanwhile this potentially Jewish organization has systematically controlled the press to silence and disgrace anyone who tries to challenge or speak on their agenda. Even I writing this can become a target or be yelled at by my own family simply for trying to uncover what Kanye West is really trying to say and why.
I don't think Ye is handling it perfectly or saying the right things, and I do think he's a little off his rocker right now, but I'm just saying it's possibly based on the truth and he does have real experience with this system of control that you can call the Illuminati. See, as a conspiracy theorist I always wondered why no famous people ever watched a 9/11 video and then came out in support of the truth movement. But some of them do, and they are silenced or defamed.
I don't hate anyone for being Jewish, and Lex Fridman is an example of a Jew I like, who interviewed Kanye and tried to get him to stop saying his anti-semetic statements. I side with Lex on this, but I'm just saying that there actually exists a real possibility that a Jewish group of people has the rest of the world by the balls and prefers it that way, and it will only get worse.
The world makes more sense when you see it as an effort to consolidate power into a small group of like-minded people who want to enslave everyone else. If that small group succeeded, wouldn't it make sense for them to share a religion? You have to ask yourself which religion is most likely to fit that type of a group. The answer is the synagogue of Satan. My local ventura county's sheriff's deptartment's symbol is the shape of a Jewish Star, showing me who's in control. Here's a great video analyzing the true meaning of the so-called "Star of David": It's 666 because it's 6 points, 6 mini-triangles, and a 6 sided polygon. You got to admit it's pretty suspicious and convenient for the conspiracy buff. The Star has no biblical reference and can't even be found in the Torah.
I know thy works, and tribulation, and poverty, (but thou art rich) and I know the blasphemy of them which say they are Jews, and are not, but are the synagogue of Satan.
Look at what Covid did. It gathered wealth into fewer people's hands and crushed small businesses and the middle class. Look at 9/11 and how much support Israel has gotten from the fallout. Look at the Patriot act and how much power the government is gaining over it's people. The steady pattern is that the average man is getting more and more fucked over. Things are not getting better they are getting worse and more expensive. Rent and gas goes up faster than wages. College ends up being largely a scam.
If Bobby Fischer, one of the most demonstratably smartest men ever, comes to the conclusion that Jewish people are the problem, I think it's worth investigating, and that's where my knowledge comes from. Just having an open mind about what Bobby was trying to say, or what Kanye West has to say. I love the chess games of Bobby, so I give him the benefit of the doubt. Similarly, I love the music of early Kanye West, so I believe he's earned my respect enough to take his claims seriously.
Even though you and I probably would like to create a world where we collaborate and both have equal rights and stuff, there is a very real force in this world of people who are trying to make it more like a slave-master type deal. True Jewish believers have little choice but to accept themselves as superior, and to treat non-jews as less than human. One option a Jew has is to disagree with that assertion, and to treat all people equally. I want all Jews to have the right to do that, and to either drop their religion, switch to Christianity, or just practice their religion in peace. But what I have a problem with is the idea of the Jewish faith uniting people who wish to systematically enslave non-jews.
They justify it by saying we act like animals. They feed us the porn and movies and music and then because we consume it they call us beasts and justify their enslavement of us through money. They see themselves as the chosen people of God because they can control themselves and act with dignity. But conspiring against your fellow man is evil and from the Devil.
If there really was a group of people trying their hardest to enlave you would you want them to be stopped? What if they took control of media outlets and controlled your information in a way that would serve them and hurt you? What if they rigged elections or the financial system? Would you want them to go to jail? Would you want justice to be served? What if they were Jewish? Would it be okay then? Should we respect the Jewish goal of world domination because it should be protected as freedom of religion?
I'm a chess player, and I can always see history or life as a game where one group of people is using tactics and strategies to put themselves into power and to stay in power. That's why my favorite book is 1984, because it shows beautifully how power can reach a breakaway point where it's impossible to beat, and people are born into slavery and manipulated to the point of loving it.
This is the only life we got from God, and I think it's beautiful and I'm thankful for it. I love all the people, even the Jews who believe that I'm "Goyim" and less than human. I forgive them all. I know that Jesus is the king and this life is just a small test compared to eternity with Christ. I'm thankful for this challenge. But I also understand that this is a rigged game and our information is manipulated and we are under attack from an evil Cabaal I'll call the Illuminati. And I also know the Jewish religion fits right into that Cabaal. I know that Christianity does not fit into that power structure. Atheism, is one way to go, but then you're just subjected to groups with stronger control over you than you realize.
I'm going to leave you with a Kanye West song, and you can see in the lyrics he's been saying the same thing for a long time. It's just that he finally said the magic word "Jew" and now the media is demonizing him. It's not our fault that the Jewish religion believes they are the chosen people and logically fits into the group of people that is obviously enlaving us and feeding us false information.
It makes me happy when a celebrity speaks out about the truth because it lets me know that these are real people and some of them get kicked out of the club when they try to help spread the truth. I'm with Lex though, I don't want to spread hate speech or incite violence, I want to be careful with my words. I'm just sharing with you my concern with the Jewish belief system based on my research of the Illuminati and world domination.
Not all Jews are bad, but if some of them actually believe they are God's chosen people, and that non-jews are less than human and should be enslaved to the Jews, isn't that worth sounding the alarm for? If a subset of Christianity believed "God hates Fags" and commited violence against gay people I would demonize them and it would be okay to raise the alarm against those Crazy Christians! I would even go as far as to say they aren't real Christians. Just like some Catholics aren't real Christians, but are Satanists in disguise. The Pope has the Saturn Star on his hat. Maybe the Jews I'm talking about aren't real Jews, and a real Jew can help clear this up and explain to me the word "Goyim" and whether or not they think non-jews are less than human. The bible says there are false Jews who pretend to be Jews but are really worshippers of Satan. That's the group I'm talking about, and who I think Kanye is trying to talk about. It's confusing because they disguise themselves as Jews or Catholics when they worship the devil.
I know thy works, and tribulation, and poverty, (but thou art rich) and I know the blasphemy of them which say they are Jews, and are not, but are the synagogue of Satan.
Extremist religious groups that cause harm to other groups for not being their religion need to be exposed and stopped, and I think there is likely a subset of the Jewish religion, Freemasonry, and Satanism that is too extreme and needs to be exposed and to face justice. I don't think you can walk into your local temple and hear talks of world domination; I think you'd need to rise through the ranks of Freemasonry and Satanism to hear that. But I don't think this world is capable of holding them accountable. Only Jesus can do that. Obviously me and this website aren't enough to stop the Illuminati plans of world domination well underway, but hopefully I can guide a few souls to salvation along the way. God Bless. Elam out.
Challenge Accepted Girl tries Chess
Great video showing a girl trying to hit 1000 ELO on chess.com. I think it shows how difficult chess really is and how emotional one can get when they reach their milestone. I just hit 2100 and had similar emotions to her. Chess can be a love/hate thing but it's mostly love.
Gothic Chess Variant
Awesome chess variant with two new pieces based on Capablanca Chess. The Archbishop (bishop + knight) and the Chancellor (rook + knight).
Just like how the Queen has the abilities of the bishop and the rook combined, the Archbishop and Chancellor do that with both having the abilities of the knight, and the rook or the bishop. The Archbishop is my favorite piece and definitely fits right in on the 10x8 chessboard.
These new pieces create new tactics and dynamics and are extremely fun to use and calculate with. In my video I made a nice checkmate combining the Archbishop with the Rook. Try it on chess.com!
Good Conspiracy Video and Great New Show
My new roommate came in talking about conspiracies. I'm like, "Do you know who you're talking to?"
It's nice to be able to agree with someone about how reality works.
He recommended I watch this video and I watched it with him and thought it was good.
Also I want to recommend the new Amazon show "The Peripheral". I love it.
$100 Million Dollar Lawsuit
Hans Niemann has sued the world champion of chess Magnus Carlsen after Carlsen accused Hans of cheating without proof after his loss against Niemann in the Sinquefield Cup.
I made a video tonight about the lawsuit, and about my love of chess and some chess history. Enjoy!
Integrating the Shadow
This is so true in my life right now. I need to actually quantify myself in the real world and stop fanticizing my existence. I have to participate in reality with a real job instead of imagining myself as someone more important.
Incredible game by Shaq. I've won a couple games like this recently with the h4-h5 attacking idea but this is next level. I made a video on one.
Here are my games with the h4 attack.
Here's another one.
It's dangerous to attack like this because often you have to castle queenside into danger or keep your king in the middle. You also have to sacrifice material and time sometimes so you're attack better work or you're usually lost on the queenside.
The h4-h5 attacking theme has been repopularized by the way Alpha Zero played chess and beat the best Stockfish at the time. Alpha Zero used deep learning and neural networks and self-play to play more creatively then the best brute force calculation computers could handle. Now I believe Stockfish has learned how to use a neural net but I'm not sure. There is Leela Chess Zero which is an open source neural network chess engine and Alpha Zero is retired.
You'll notice I ended both games in style with a royal fork and them resigning, but it's really all about going after the king and trying to checkmate and that's what makes them blunder their queen. These attacks are so successful even if Black plays perfectly from before the move they blunder their queen they still have a losing position. The attacks are sound. Shaq's was otherworldly though with an amazing rook knight bishop and queen sacrifice.
This is the final position before my opponent resigned after blundering his bishop.
I finally reached a new rating milestone of 2100 on lichess.org for rapid time control (10 minutes each)!
I've been battling with some really good players above 2150 and sometimes I would have a winning position but lose on time. I also had a draw that kept me near 2100 and then I finally won a game to put me over the top. I had been losing, winning, losing, winning, drawing, but I finally did it with a win, draw, win.
I am so happy and I'm not sure I'll touch my rapid account for a while. I'll probably switch over to classical to try to get that to 2100 but honestly it's not a serious goal of mine I think I might just play for fun and take a break from reaching milestones. It was SO difficult and I learned so much about the nuances of the game to be able to beat these players consistently enough to reach 2100.
And it's Friday! God bless. I am seriously so happy I can forever say I'm 2100. It was getting annoying saying I'm 2000 because I was really 2080 for a long time but now I can finally say I'm 2100. 2500 is a grandmaster and there's also things like Candidate Master and Internnational master. and FM but I forget what that stands for.
I am definitely ready to enter tournaments and try to get a real FIDE rating going. I should also probably start focusing on my chess.com ratings and get them all to at least 1800.
p.s. this is an achievement only I can truly understand and appreciate. I will tell my friends but it's hard for them to quantify how great a 2100 chess player is. I'm happy and proud of myself. I'm even considering taking a break from competitive chess online because I don't want to keep getting stuck and chasing a new rating milestone. This is so huge for me and I've been trying all year and part of me thought it was just never going to happen with the way 2100s play chess. But finally I started to get good enough to wear they were the ones blundering away quick games and resigning. And I had some clutch comebacks and checkmates with 2 seconds left.
I'm going to enjoy this for the weekend and celebrate with my friend and then take a break from playing chess and just follow the US Championship! Codejoy out.
All time high
Almost 2100! 2093 after this game against my highest rated opponent I've ever beaten.
Great attacking game that was actually sound.
A lot of times I have a great attacking game that works but the computer in the postgame analysis finds ways to defend, but in this game it was winning the whole time!
Only a couple wins away from my goal of 2100!
More Midjourney AI generated images from text
A pet dragon breathing blue fire
The Vengeance of God
Wrong Side of the Sea
I wrote and recorded a new song tonight. It's missing a bridge as usual because I don't know how to write a good bridge. It doesn't come naturally to me. I think it gets a little repetitive at the end but I like the beginning and the sound and poetry of the lyrics.
FullStack Web Developer
Still, for a blog it's not necessary to have a backend but I know I'm missing key skills for the job market by not knowing how to do backend stuff. It's frustrating to have to learn 2 languages in js and python but I don't like how js does the backend so I might have to get back into python. Django is so cumbersome I wish it was simpler to do simple things and I don't like downloading a bunch of packages I don't understand when I'm trying to built my site from scratch with what I truly know so I can intuitively know how to modify it. That being said my current project has plateaued and I really need to start building fullstack web applications to progress with my skills. It's a pain in the ass to learn new things especially when I'm not getting paid and may never break through to the industry and use my skills I painstakingly develop. But I think all I can do right now is improve day by day and maybe spend an hour or two learning new things and then seeing what I can accomplish and what new web apps I can design and build. I'm back on the coding wagon. Wish me luck! And you know what? I'm proud of myself for trying to learn node.js today because although it didn't all work or make sense to me I definitely understand the backend a little better now that I tried it. The artwork above is from AI and somebody else. I ran out of attempts with midjourney's AI image generator from text. I plan on generating some more this week with my friend. God Bless.
Cloudland, The Game
I want to design a game called Cloudland about a Dragonslayer named Elam who slays the dragon Ecnarelot. I've already written the story and written some chronicles
It's tough to design games because it takes up space on my computer and is hard work to do alone. It would be nice to get a team together. If I had the money I would hire an artist and a programmer to make the game fun. I could do it myself but sometimes I get discouraged spending so much time and effort developing a game.
My first game I made was Starbros and I still like that game but I definitely would love to create the game Cloudland. But if I download Unity I don't have space to record my chess videos. It's almost like I need a new computer. My battery is not good anymore and the keys are getting stuck on my keyboard. I would like to see how good of a game I can make and then eventually have my own game studio called Godlike Games or Jann Software. I would also be down to work for a game company until I can make my own.
I quit my job in insurance and want to follow my passions of writing, music, art, chess, and video game development. My blog can be a little wacky but I have bipolar disorder and I'm on medication now and I'm still proud of this website and blog even though it can be a little embarrassing when I look at what I wrote a year ago.
In Conclusion, I really like this Stan Lee clip about not letting idiots talk you out of what you truly believe is a good idea. My idea is Elam slaying Dragons in Cloudland, and I intend to make a game out of it one day. God Bless.
Beta Fish in a big pond
I just finally programmed it so that anyone who types in maxjann.com/blog will be redirected to maxjann.com / the current month
This is pretty sweet as it's difficult to load everything but I want people to be able to use /blog and get the latest stuff.
I did 100 Pushups today again, with my routine of 20 before work, 20 on my 2 ten minute breaks, 20 at lunch, and 20 when I get home. I also went to the gym and got 6 pull ups in and worked the machines. I can only do 4 pullups right now which is embarrassing but at least I'm making progress. I could only do like 1 when I started going to the gym at my new place.
I still need to get a scale but I'm eating and drinking better and making healthier choices. Today I realized I hate getting ready for the gym. I hate putting on my shorts and shoes. So i just went to the gym in my pants and slides, all comfortable. It's dumb to drop weights on my toes but I didn't use any weights. I just used machines and the pull up bar.
I learned from the book Atomic Habits that you can't make something a habit unless you enjoy it. By remaining comfortable during my workout, at least I can get in some reps and have a positive experience so I'll be more likely to go back again.
I really like that song I just posted in this. I hope you like it too. It's called Loverboy by A Wall. I hope I can turn my life around, get the results I want and point back at my journey in this blog.
I gotta stop being such a beta male. I want to be Alpha. I think I'm naturally alpha, but I've let myself get too emotional. I dig my own music but I definitely would like to develop a more masculine sound and lyrical diction.
It's also possible I was only alpha in a small pond of highschool, but I definitely haven't been one in the larger pond of real life yet.
Not sure why they call Beta Fishes beta. Those things are awesome.
Super Saiyan Max
I did 100 pushups today.
I've been trying so hard to motivate myself to get better habits so I can get a better life.
I listened to the full audiobook of "Atomic Habits" by James Clear, a philosopher my Mom recommended. It's about how tiny consistent changes have a compounding effect that can produce profound results. I've also been looking into my free time away from work and sleep and how I spend it. I have about 7 hours of free time on a work day. I need to spend 1 hour of it on exercise to reach my potential.
Last night I went out to dinner with a girl I met on Tinder. We had a nice night but she didn't even want to hold hands.
The whole experience of trying to get laid made me realize.. there is no good shortcut. The best way is to find a girl you really like who you're willing to wait for until she's comfortable. And it doesn't feel like work or waiting because you enjoy every second of it because you really like her. -- I did it right the first time, but once you're an adult and have already had sex many times, it's harder to be patient with girls you just met, and I've lost sight on the right way to go about it.
My problem is the girls I really like do not like me too. That's because I desire very high quality women and they have their choice and will pick guys who work harder than me, look better, and probably make more money.
I'm left with no choice but to get in kickass shape and see if that helps my chances with the girls I really want to go after. But I've been meaning to get in shape for a while and it still isn't happening but finally today I reached a breaking point.
I went to bed early after my unsuccessful date and then I woke up early this morning and unfortunately decided to watch porn and wank it... twice. Then I felt like a total loser but I thought, you know what? I can still turn this day around. I got out of bed and did 20 pushups to restart my day.
Then, I went to work and on my first 10 minute break I went outside and did another 20 pushups. I may not have my life together enough to have a gym/breakfast morning routine but at least I can work out on my breaks outside. Another 20 pushups no big deal.
Then on my lunch break I did another 20 pushups making 60 total. I realized if I did another 20 on my last 10 minute break, and 20 at home at night, that would be 100 total and a good daily milestone.
Stupidly I ordered for lunch a Giant Philly Cheesesteak sandwich from Jersey Mikes with Chipotle Sauce and At like 1 and a little of the second half of it.
I felt terrible but I still got my 20 pushups in my last break making 80. Then I had a really bad stomach ache and I promised myself I'd start eating smarter for both my physical health and my mental health.
When I got home I watched little miss sunshine and did another 20 pushups and I ordered groceries to my house with fruits and vegetables and I'm considering just skipping lunch at work from now on because it will prevent me from wasting money ordering unhealthy food and I can lose weight by fasting. Ideally I could have a good breakfast and good dinner and skip lunch, maybe have a healthy snack idk.
Little Miss Sunshine is about flawed characters coming together for a common good and accepting themselves. It's about how the journey is more important then the destination. It's about how winning isn't everything. It's how you play. It's about being yourself and it's about having fun when things don't go your way. It's about protecting the innocence of a child and it's also about not having the answers to the child's questions, and life's big questions. No one knows. We do the best we can. All we can do is try. And there's more to life than winning. But I'm certainly going to try to win by my own metrics. If I can at least be the best version of myself I know I can be, at that point, no one else's opinion matters. I am my own worst critic.
I also got 10 curls in and today feels like a success.
I really want to eat healthier, to save more money, and to become a better looking man so I can get better looking women.
Sometimes I think positively about where I was 1 year ago. 1 year ago my coding skills were rotting away atropheying ( is that a word? ) and I was living with an old grouchy woman who policed how I did laundry and was very annoying.
My living situation has improved, my salary has improved, my social life has improved, (I'm actually going on dates pretty consistently lately). My guitar skills and chess skills have improved, my website is vastly improved.
I don't know if there's any metric by which my life has not improved over the past year, so although it feels sometimes like I'm an idiot bumbling around in the dark, I am moving in the right direction and picking up speed.
I still have a lot to learn about life but I'm grateful for my life and all the room I have for improvement.
I don't miss facebook. I just like putting my thoughts out there like this. This would be a weird AF facebook post, but on my personal website it fits right into my wacky thoughts.
I went to the Chargers Browns game today and I saw James Bond tonight.
I'm beginning to wonder what's the point of this blog. It used to be I thought I had something to say, something to teach. But now I feel like I've been so bad at getting what I want that why should anyone listen to me? Not only that, but what if I'm wrong about Jesus and God or conspiracy theories? Then what would this blog be?
I had to get a negative test for covid within 72 hours of entering sofi stadium because I'm unvaccinated. This added stress but it was worth it. I got to see the Browns and Chagers put up 90 points.
When you are behind your computer screen and not out in the real world, it sounds worse than it actually is. I was able to see the game with my dad and have fun even though I'm unvaccinated. It was quite the inconveniece to get tested within the time frame given my insurance but at least it was possible.
If you read the official rules of Sofi stadium they say you have to wear the mask at all times when not eating or drinking, but really once you get in the front door everyone takes their masks off. Life is good for a lot of people out there. They are blissfully unaware of any incumberance on their life. I dig that. Because their radar doesn't even go off unless they're being actively restricted from having fun, whereas my radar is constantly going off.
So it's not that big of deal. The world is still free. No bombs went off or anything crazy, and I got to see my favorite team play. Then I got to see James Bond. And James Bond wasn't feminist propaganda like some trolls might suggest. It was a great movie. Maybe these events people go to really are just artists trying their best to entertain or venues trying their best to be safe. Maybe God is made up and Jesus isn't the Son of God. But.
But, there was this one thing. In the plot of the Bond Movie, the villain is using DNA identifying nano-bot precision poisoning to kill certain people without collateral damage. He kind of has a kill switch on certain targets via nanobots and poison.
My conspiracy alarms started going off. If they put the idea of nanobots going into your blood and manipulating your DNA or communicating your DNA to a center that can then target you, if they put that in a movie everybody laps it up like "oh yes that makes sense I get that. Seems believeable" Wilful suspension of disbelief. But then if a conspiracy theorist says the vaccine has nano-technology in it that's potentially dangerous or in the hands of the wrong people then that's somehow insane or crazy.
The way it works in the bond movie is that once they have your DNA, they can kill you with a toxin that only targets your DNA group specifically. So if you're in a party and they spray the air, only you and your family dies.
This made me think... They don't have my DNA. They don't have nanobots in me most likely. By abstaining from the vaccine I'm not giving them that chance or power over me. However, in the Bond movie, the premise is, it's enough to have the nanobots in my dad or mom. My dad and mom both got vaccinated. So with this bond theory applied to reality then that means that my DNA might as well be targeted if necessary because the bots in my mom and dad can give the recipe for the dust that will kill me and only me and my family whenever they want to. It sounds ridiculous I know, but think of the national security benefits to having a killswitch on everyone by virtue of mass vaccination. Every conspiracy theorist is going to have at least one family member gullible enough to get vaccinated. They have the killswitch on everyone.
Imagine a Car chase where a bad guy has a hostage. The cops throw in a special gas in the car. The gas kills the bad guy because he has a certain DNA it's designed to kill. And the hostage gets away unharmed.
Or you could spray the air and kill everyone except the people with their DNA on the exempt list. You could accomplish mass genocide with this bond villain technology. Now is that a genuine theory from a real writer just trying to entertain us? Or is that a real illuminati plot to take over the world and we are just allowed to glimpse it for whatever reason? Is it a coincidence that the vaccinations are MRNA and the bond villain stuff is doing kind of a similar thing? Is the writer trying to tell us something?
Anyway, I trip about girls sometimes but I just saw a full stadium of them and they're all gorgeous. I'm sure I'll find one for me again eventually.
Absolutely hilarious color commentary of an amateur chess game, but maybe it's only funny for chess experts lol.
I was listening to Christopher Hitchens today and he said religion is like a death cult, because in order to believe it you have to long for death, and subscribe to the idea of an apocalypse. You have to consider all human progress as something to be discarded and started over.
He also pointed out that religions can satisfy the human need for obedience and slavery, essentially. In light of a cosmic God one can only be a cosmic serf of sorts.
In my own personal experiennce I was at my most happiest when I wasn't particularly religious nor was I philosophical. I was 20 and happy with the world and my place in it. I didn't long for it to be over and to be placed in some sort of heaven. And I didn't long to be told what to do by cosmic laws either. I was content with making my own judgements and decisions. And of course, church was always seen as a drag.
Neil Degrasse Tyson also said today to me in that same video, "The Universe is knowable". Do not try to ascribe what you don't understand to the mystical or magical.
Recently I was watching a QOC video where he points out how impossibly fast Google's search results are, and he did have some excellent points, however, he had a basic misunderstanding of how search engines work. He thought it was searching the whole web in less than a second and returning results. In reality, I think it works more like a search engine working around the clock and organizing everything so that when you type in a search it just filters the list it already possesses. It doesn't start from scratch. It just goes to the section of it's library that you need.
I don't want to point at things I don't understand and make foolish claims about it. I'm not taking magic off of the table either.
Matt from Quantum of Conscience has stopped researching thoroughly. As he points out, you never get anywhere or convince anyone, so it must be pointless. He says it (reality itself) will give you what it wants you to chase. You certainly end up in a pointless loop. So it's not worth investigating what kind of poop it is if you know it's poop. Just stay away. You don't have to do a chemical analysis.
But it's got me thinking. I'm disappointed in believing in God. I'm disappointed in myself.
I went to West Hollywood and had a birthday dinner with some friends and we went out to the bar and there were a lot of pretty girls and I talked to a lot of them.
I came home empty handed. The best interaction I had was with the prettiest girl there. She had a boyfriend who came in with her but I told her when she was alone that she was the prettiest girl there. She really was a stunner. She believed me and was nice to me. Later I went back to talk to her again and officially ask her on a date but she said she couldn't because of the bf. I then asked for her advice on what I can improve on so I can get a girl like her. She asked me to hold her drink and then unbuttoned my shirt. I had it buttoned up because I had no undershirt because I had gotten it wet earlier when I got out of the jacuzzi. She said to stay authentic and try again. There was nothing she could really tell me. I already know the answer. It's just hard work I am having trouble getting myself to do.
Another girl told me to be persistent, which I thought was interesting.
The trouble with cocaine is you think you're a success when you're on it, and you feel like a failure coming down.
The trouble with porn is you are experiencing what it's like to be with a woman, while at the same time distancing yourself from getting a real woman.
Drugs and shortcuts don't work. There's no easy way to get anything worthwhile. Is that God? Is that Evolution?
Should I curse existence for dangling things in front of me that I cannot currently have, or may never have? Or should I thank God for giving me something I desire and can work toward achieving. Would it be easier if all girls were hot and horny and thought I was dead sexy? Or is it the perfect balance?
It's such a fundamental desire, that it's very hard to not consider myself a failure, turning 30, single and alone. On the other hand, I'm glad I'm single, and only want to spend my time on high-quality women. Extremely high-quality woman. I really only had eyes on that one girl, and I'm not really capable of giving it my all with a consolation girl.
On the bright side, at least I'm still young enough to turn things around. I also do not lack the confidence to approach and try to get a girl like that. I am unsuccessful, but at least I have the ability to succeed.
When I see an internship for Insomniac Games which made Spiderman and Ratchet and Clank, I read the job requirements and realize I'm not qualified. It really stinks. It requires C++ or a math or physics major or computer science major. I know C# and have a coding bootcamp certificate. Not quite there, but I'm also not completely far off. My life has probably never been more in the balance. I could resign to failure and long for an afterlife, another life, the end of the world. Or, I could strive to be better, learn more and understand more about the world, and to participate in actively helping that world grow.
In that vein, religious beliefs seem like death, and realistic beliefs seem like life. But of course it's more complicated than that, and Jesus said quite the opposite. But even Jesus I have a problem with right now. Suppose I get with a girl and she's Christian and she likes me back. What if she doesn't have sex with me because we're not married or something? Isn't that just basing a serious decision on fable? There is no hard evidence that God exists and doesn't want you to fuck. And if he did, why did he make it so damn alluring?
Tonight, Thunder roared and the sky cried, and it felt like God weeping for losing one of his Christian believers, and I thought about why people thought Thor would be angry at me for discounting him and his hammer.
I look at the way Ozark portrayed the Pastor, and I think it was purposefully to make Christians seem insane, which actually lends credibility to religion in my eyes. However, Game of Thrones does an excellent job of showing how realistic these fake religions can get. Everyone just goes along with the Lord of Light or the Seven, and it all seems perfectly normal. It fits right in with our religions of the past and present, and yet it's being make-believe forms no noticable seperation from our own.
I'm not ready to throw Jesus out completely, and I'm even less ready to throw out conspiracies or the Mandela Effect. But, I will not fall into lazy thinking of calling things I can't explain magic. And I will not curse this world and long for the next. I will also not take my values from some outside source. I will do what I think is right.
My experiences recently have given me a lot to think about and there's multiple ways to interpret it in both positive and negative ways. I'm not trying to teach you anymore, I'm more interested in just getting what I want and learning how to get it.
I need a better desk and that's what I'm going to get.